My Imaginary Friend In My 30s

I can't believe I have a fucking imaginary friend!🤦🏽‍♀️ Shaking my head!, In disbelief at myself. I've always considered myself level headed, rational and all that shit the world considers normal, right., However!, In my late 30s whatever “it” is hovers over my every move. It doesn't talk to me or no shit like that, nor have I seen it,👀 not to my knowledge anyways🤷🏽‍♀️, neither do I talk to it., That cancels me out from being crazy right?!🤣., Doesn't it? I hope so! It's something like an angel so to speak because it watches over me? A spirit guide I don't remember asking for maybe?

I'm starting to get the feeling it's been here with me throughout my whole life the whole time., Because there has been situations only a supernatural power could've seen me through. I'll look more into that later! Right now I'm going to elaborate a little more on how this came about., Or how I discovered it was here with me.

One day laying in bed a shadow overcast me while my eyes were closed! A shadow I can feel! My eyes pop open, in hopes of this strong energy leaving!, but it didn't!, in fact, it seemed to make its presence known, stronger!

It wouldn't let me sleep. Every time I tried to force the thought that an energy was standing right before me out of my head and fall asleep, I would feel a strong energetic touch that'll wake me! I decided it must be something “its” trying to communicate to me, so I decided to get up look around the house check my doors, and as crazy as this seemed, my front door was cracked open and not fully closed. I'm guessing from earlier in the day I came in from the grocery store rushing to the restroom to use it and getting sidetracked must've forgotten to close the door behind myself. From that point on I knew whatever “it” was, must have my best interest here.

It's not technically here though 🤔soooo? An imaginary friend? Like the stories and experience I heard little kids tell?

I remember being jealous that I wasn’t experiencing this magical super power friend as a kid. This person that guided and only talk to them. Invisible to everyone, especially to people who didn't think past their own thought process and only seen things for what was smack dead in front of them, shallow. Disappearing and reappearing at pivotal moments. Giving pep talks and encouraging their self-esteem. Enlightening their imagination on levels no one else without this type of friend would understand. I've always thought of these kids as chosen because few are chosen and many don't understand.

Now as an adult experiencing this I'm not to intrigued by something that no one else can see hear or feel lol. In this world we live in, that's called crazy! That's called schizo! Anything that's not fully understood, explained or experience by the majority is plaqued with diagnosis and treatment or medicine.

😱 Omg! This might mean I'm just plain on losing my mind!

But how do I explain the positive outcomes this force has driven from within me? The blunt intuition I'm delightfully overwhelmed with. 🤔 I won't explain it! I'll keep “it” to myself! I told “it” it has to stay out of my way of remaining to seem sane and normal!

So far so good!🤣 I receive and take my guidance in privacy with poise, delicately as humble as I know how. Respect the opposed mindset knowing that my positive light will affect them eventually if not me, someone who has been affected positively by the light💪🏽👌🏽🤞🏽✌️🏽 Peace-Love-&Soul!