My Crazy Life

Hello, I am about to tell the story of my crazy life, right now I am a senior in high school and I have a boyfriend who is skinnier and taller than I am and we don't love each other based on looks but based on our personalities and yesterday (June 18, 2022), I hung out with my best friend and my ride or die pretty much for the whole day and let me just say what I am about to tell you actually took me off guard, I had pretty much told my boyfriend from the first day I said yes to dating him (May 19, 2022) because he obviously asked me out was that I am polyamorous, he told me he didn't mind that I was and now fast forward to June 18, 2022, which is the day I am hanging out with my best friend, I find out I still have feelings for her while dating my amazing boyfriend...I asked him if he would be ok with me asking her out and I mentioned that I wouldn't if he wasn't ok with it but his answer also took me off guard... he said he was ok with me asking her out, so I did and she said yes.

As of June 18, 2022, I got a girlfriend who is also my closest friend since I was in 6th grade and as of May 19, 2022, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is. I can't tell my family about my girlfriend because they are already aware that I have a boyfriend and because of my family's generational way of thinking, and growing up Italian (On my mother's side) and Irish (On my father's side), the LGBTQ+ community isn't really liked when it's within the family but supportive of other people being apart of the community, which is shitty I know. My parents are more accepting of the LBGTQ+ community I just can't tell them I'm pansexual until I am older but I don't think I can ever tell my parents that I am polyamorous because I watch Seeking Sister Wife and when I brought it up the first time, my parents thought that it was "glorified cheating" but in reality, it's not cheating as long as all the people involved in the relationship are okay with you dating another person while they date you, aka my boyfriend is mine and my girlfriend is mine they aren't dating each other.

I love my family and my parents but there are some things that I keep to myself and this would be one of them, especially since when I first started dating my boyfriend all of a sudden my mother goes "AND THEY'RE BOYS" referring to both my boyfriend and my sister's boyfriend but it was a strange ass reaction.

I also had a friend who is my best friend move away I met her through the chorus and both of us are now seniors in high school and it sucks because her mom and stepdad are saying that it's a possibility that she might be able to come back to my school and the last thing that we did together chorus-wise is something that is called MPA or Music Performance Assessment, our last day with her was the day after, but it was still hard and me, two of my friends, and she all got emotional because we knew it wouldn't be the same without her and sure enough...we were right. I miss her a lot because she welcomed me within the first second of me stepping into the first choir rehearsals that I was actually there for.

But anyway, that's it for now. Hope you tune in again and enjoyed reading my material! Bye, loves!!