Mad love part 2.

Being with you was like riding the edge of instability and a rollercoaster that felt terrifying and thrilling all at the same time.

With every crack of the mirror it brought out something new to dig deeper in and come fresh out on top with the support and encouragement, the love of the ones who walked along the line to get there with you.

I gave so many focused moments and reached to the depths to teach, show and guide. So many moments away from integral growth and development for my own seeds.

Every time.....every time I fell for the stories of all that was around me.

The Manipulated mirrors to make sure things went in the directions needed, so I would remain distracted and afraid. Then when others began to create bumps in the path because you then realize that you aren't the only person that inhabits the planet.

The seeds are still growing, with you here or not.

We may think it is a large vast space, yet....each and everyone is connected some how, some way, with respecting boundaries. Believed so many mirrored spaces that made me certain I do not want to be like. I do not want to strive for unsteadiness, instability. The dream isn't held in chaos. There is enough of that to go around for sure.

I gave up everything to be somewhere that I can't see clearly in....speaking to the exact point of reference of not being able to control the outside of our very own being. We are what we can control, following suit is helpful because it is for the greater good of everyone and the people we love are included in that. So as you sit here and read this message from beyond the distance and time of whenever it hits who ever is meant to hear it.

Know this...

No matter how much you think you control your own reality.

You don't.

You are never alone.

Your creativity has been studied for longer than you have been alive, all that is required is to put your roots down, make sure those feet are planted on the ground and you are listening to what is coming through and discern for yourself.

Does this seed require more water?

Does this seed require some sun?

Are you listening?

They are all praying for you, they are all giving light to the decisions and choices, they are all sending the love.

There is divine intervention beyond our controls, I only wanted to help, follow the path, the plan and the word of goodness, of the light.

There was no light in you.

Stay. you say. Stay.

Stay right where you are.

I don't get to, nor have to, nor want to shed any of this light over there.

I will keep looking forward and not behind me, that girl died in the embers that tore the whole world apart.

So with these roots and planted feet I am farther ahead than you could ever imagine.

I like walking. It feels better in the rain, it feels better in the sun.

I am going to keep going.

The sound of the encouragement from the leaves around me, clapping in the wind, "Keep going" I hear.

I must keep going......I must continue to move my body, I must continue to connect to the source that is meant to keep me going.

Your hopes only to see me fall back and crash, for this is not the experience we are repeating again in this life.

My final goodbye.

Leave the wreckage. All the pieces.

For they are beautiful as they are.