I Have a Confession To Make

From the moment it started I hated you, no not disliked but, hated you. Deeply dispited you.

You where wanted, wanted in this world.

If I where to ask to most parent's would you want a child that is flawed and, autistic? That had a flaw our disability. They would hesitate before answering, and tell you a soft lie but, the truth is if they truly had a choice

That's why abortions when the child has down-syndrome are a thing, this is why company's exist that let you pre-select how your baby is going to look. under the guise of "health care".

Because, here's the truth, in this world we have been so busy with earning money, that we now only value human's for what they can bring in.

If you're kind hearted your naive, and someone thinking their more deserving will come and, take advantage of you. Empathy isn't valued, how much you make and, what people think of you is.

Capitalism at it's best they say, it's a society that breeds narc's and psychopaths and, that's for a reason and, you might already defend yourself, and smooth things over, because that is what narcist do, they are never to blame, they are the victim.

But here's the deeper truth, capitalism, the way greedy people are in our world was alway's meant to be.

When faced with change, people rather stay comfortable and, then hide it. Making any excuses they can find.

They ignore what's going on so they don't have to change, because true change is hard, and barely any people have the guts to do it. That's why most people are unable to bear silence and, have to talk their words, even when it's voided.

We are but, very weak minded creatures, that enjoy the illusion of intelligence while we are still driven by irrational fears and, sweet vile desires at our core. It's like an apple shinying from the outside, rotten at it's core.

Epstein? He wasn't the problem, he was an inevitable outcome of a thing, we dare call society, pretending to be righteout. He's not what was wrong we are, and, we all are equally guilty of it.

Dostoevsky, Machiavelli they all knew it years ago, the core of our nature is: Greed. We are but, self-centered narcist with the delusion of empathy and, that makes us worse then any animal our parasite.

Because, a parasite does but, destroy it's host, we? We kill other species and, it's living, enviroment to a fate worser then dead.

And, you? You are just as guilty, of that. You consume, part of our planet everyday, like the greedy parasite you are, and, you barely have any ability to look outside your own, biases but, of course you would deny that. Humans always do.

We aren't God greatest creation, we are his demons, that's why we aren't welcome in Heaven without trial, because God is mercy and, would even grant the most vile of demon's a chance of retribution.

We pride ourselves on our writing our painting our art, yet even after centuries still start pointless wars. We tell ourselves that we are right because, we belong to a side, the left the right, LGBT+, none LGBT whatever distraction it is, as long as we keep on having the illusion that we are right, we never do the actually right thing, we never unite as a species big, enough to make the actual changes that matter, instead we stay and, continue our petty pity argument about who most hurt our feelings that day, whatever issue is within us, short sighted utterly emptyness driven by our own-selfish being that think we are the center of everything.

It's sickening and, a allows the self-pittying narc to be a thing. The one, that has that much of a self-centered ego that they personally think, their the blame at everything. Every wrong haps every miss-step in their lives who else but, to blaim but, them.

And, then when we tell them we are wrong because, they are the victim. We are suddently the ones to blame. Truth is we all are just as shitty.