I didn't want fall for you

The truth was I didnt want to fall for him.

I had told myself no more relationship, no more falling for someone. It was time for me to focus on university and develop a career. Like many people you have had your heart hurt too many times, to the point that you stop looking for love because you have been too damage from the people that you thought loved you.

But some partners cannot love you for who you were, quirkiness and all.

I didn't want to be hurt again so I stopped and was ready to focus on university for the next three years. I had gotten myself in, when I thought that I wouldnt.

I was sitting at the table with another guy, I had gotten my 'geek and nerd vibes' I knew he was a geek like me. So I sat down and we were chatting, jsut everyday stuff. Life, tv shows, anime and manga.

Then after sometime, he came walking down the hallway. For an idea of the set up the table that I was sitting at was directly inline of the door which led to the hallway.

The man that would break down my walls came walking into the room. Immediatly my nerd vibe was going off the charts. That's my kind of guy cute nerds. He was nervous at first and was going to sit alone but I called him over to sit at the same table as myself and the other guy.

It has been a year now and I am still with him, I tried to discourage him showing how strange I am, but then he was giving me advances. AND HE DIDNT BACK DOWN, I kind of blame his sister, they were walking about me and she encouraged him to keep at it.

And bit by bit he broke down my mental barriers, slowly healing the hurt pieces of me until.... I was starting to feel happy. He could make me laugh, his silly jokes and STUPID puns.

I will be honest it is hard to find someone to love. For many reasons I cannot name them all but they themselves have had alot of emotional damage, high standards, social standards, sooo much.

After sometime when he broke down my barriers and warmed my heart, I started to return the affection, with some playful flirting and sincere. Tilting my head, flicking my hair back and so on.

Untill I was invited over to do some study and watch some anime.

For some reason, I bought a packet of Pokey with me. I guess deep down that I wanted something to happen.

His family house was stunning, for a moment I thought I didnt belong because we lived on different ends of the 'classes' I lived in the lower class.

But he wasnt like that and he was looking for the one girl that took a chance with him. I took that chance, learning about him, seeing his personality and what kind of man he his.

After some time, we gave it a shot on June 5th we became girlfriend and boyfriend. Even to this day he still believes that our anniversary is the June 15th. (I facepalm myself everytime he says it). I know it off by heart because our anniversary is 4 days after my brothers birthday.

He is a silly, forgetful and strange man. But that is what I like about him because I am the same and we can be ourselves with eachother. And not be judged by our partner for who we are.

I didn't want to fall for him, but in the end I DID.