High demand

I have no idea why but several people were hot on my ass last night. Kind of like a fury of sexual desire and it was so odd because the person I liked really didn't even care or was more taciturn. I am not saying this arrogantly, I have options right now. I think most women or feminine people are like that right now, but for whatever reason it was coming off pretty strong last night. Like people sort of sending me ravenous messages like I was an oasis in a vast desert.

I'll be honest, it sort of turned me on and I sort of considered a few of them, but I decided to value my peace and not be running around like a chicken without my head, chasing tail.

I feel a bit dangerous listening to tarot without my headphones at my grandma's right now, but I mean what can I do? They are dead and I need to charge them if they want me to be "polite" again.

I have figured out how to make my current challenge work out for me, I know how to channel the energy to my benefit now but I will try not to abuse it. I just like to maintain a certain amount.

It did sort of make the energy thick last night. Waking up this morning I feel more clear so I want to take advantage of this possible momentum. My brother gets up really early to go to work so I don't have to worry about bothering him, we all only see eachother kind of at dinner time.

I am wondering if getting this deposit back from the apartment will be easy or not, I am hoping or the least amount of complications as possible.. I feel like I need to make some bigger moves in my life but I feel I am always caught in some sort of transition. I mean, right now... I am sort of free to make a move actually once I get the deposit back.

Also I think buying the PO box was smart. I am getting all my mail changed to that. I feel a bit confused this morning, or I mean like nothing spiritually is happening right now but I should get ready more earnestly. Looking at my workbook looks laughable. I still have Pixie Road in my workbook but I dunno. I am thinking of just working on Soul Reverie instead and scrap Pixie Road. I don't know why it pisses me off so much to think of this right now. I mean, like with the Google Fi ad, it is difficult but it doesn't piss me off. The idea of working on Pixie Road is pissing me off. I guess because I am imagining someone stealing my work. I have one patron on that tier on my Patreon and it feels like a joke. They can just steal my info and make something with it. I guess I will just contact him individually and ask him if he'd want me to update the tier or something.

I know that I don't need to worry about talking to my grandma because I am leaving in an hour but I need to get packed and dressed to leave.

Apparently I have an appointment with my prescriber. I don't really have anything to talk to him about. I guess I need to google some sort of script to handle this man. Or maybe just stick to answering his questions and that's it. Probably the best way to go about it. He is going to be annoying since I am not going to be stationary today but I don't care.