Dancing with My True Self

Recently, I've discovered how good it feels to accept myself exactly as I am.

I've accepted that through free movement, cultivating a state of presence, and connecting with the Feminine Body, I return to myself. I've done many courses and therapies in the past years, and I have been slowly come to embody my true feminine self. It's a journey, it takes time. Patience and consistency are needed.

Moving my body has taught me to let go of expectations. I started with guided gym programs. There were rigid outlines of how to-s and what not to-s. For a while, I was part of communities where women were directed by other guiding mentors to keep up the good work, keep up with a schedule, and just keep doing. 

It was all about doing. 

Those didn't work for me. I learned that I needed to stop forcing myself to be how I "should" be. 

I needed to allow myself to break free from limiting beliefs that told me what I was doing wasn't right, that somewhere I made a mistake, and that I needed to do something to fix it. 

What I needed was to stop doing and become a more fluid being. Under my carcass, I have always been fueled by the senses, by the flow of dancing, running, and somatic experiences for releasing blocks and expectations. 

Repetitive thoughts of not being enough reflected a continuous state of rejection. I rejected myself for a very long time. I often experienced this through the guilt I felt about my decisions. 

Gradually, I realized how important it is to forgive, to forgive myself, to no longer put pressure on having results, but to allow myself to be at peace with everything that has happened so far. 

I needed to free myself from guilt. And when, if not now, at forty?

As a woman, this has helped me enormously. I realized how much I had pressured myself. I finally felt released.

If you're going through this too, I want you to know that it's perfectly normal to give up the obligation to be a certain way. Choose to be you, choose to express yourself as you feel, and don't be afraid. 

The courage to choose yourself makes all the hardships crumble. At the end of the day, we all have our own truth, but that truth defines our inner states.

Do you want to be right that others don't appreciate you? Or that your partner doesn't care about you?

Is this the Belief you live by?

OR

Are you ready to say STOP and choose another scenario?

I choose to believe that everything is perfect, and that I am loved and valuable.

That those around me offer me love and are truly by my side. 

I choose to live without putting pressure on myself.

I choose to free myself from the past and allow myself to feel safe in my relationship. 

I choose to no longer repeat the patterns of previous generations. 

I choose to no longer blame anyone because there is no greater disharmony than believing that God's plan for you is wrong. That you are wrong or that you did something wrong. I shudder to think back to all the times I thought these. 

I now accept each new day with openness and know that what I am is unique.

I know that the love I feel and share with my loved ones is received and appreciated.

I am the one who shifts attention from destruction and separation to love and forgiveness.

Thank you for reading. I appreciate you. 🙏