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To Whom It May Concern,

This letter is to stand as a guide for her. But first I want to ask you a few questions.

1. Do you know why you chose her? Of all the women in your world right now, why her? What is it that stands out, that makes her catch your attention above or even along with all the others?

2. Are you ready for her, her fierce and fiery tenacity, her headstrong "I got this" ambitious attitude? Are you ready for her traumatic anxiety, and cautious overthinking? Can you handle her complete openness and brutal honesty?

At her best, she wants to be different, nothing like anything you've ever had. She wants more than anything to give you a love you've never known, with an understanding and respectfulness of the individuality that makes you, you. She will push you to meet your dreams and cheer for you as you become better than her. She will stand beside you even when you are wrong and defend you with everything she has. To her, love is an intrinsic quality to life and no one should ever be deficient.

But...

She will love you with an acceptance that you've probably never had before but yet not expect the same from you. She will drive herself crazy telling herself you don't really want her and she's just another side piece to add to the list of backups you have to fall into when things get old.

She knows she could have anyone of her choosing, but chooses not to pick, because she knows that would be too easy. What she wants is different from easy. She wants things to just fall together the way they should, fights that you learn from, and the feeling of beauty that only comes from that rawness, that intensity, that simplicity.

I asked those questions because she will drive you insane if you're not ready. She will push you away, but leave you still wanting pieces of her. If you are not sure of what you want from her, you won't have much to hold onto when she is everywhere while standing still. She will show you a love that is hard and confusing but easy and straightforward. She wants to feel completely vulnerable but confident in her vulnerability with you. She will ask you for the pieces you don't give to anyone else, and she will reach for the places you keep hidden and try to hold them for you, but if she is just “another one” you will never truly see her for who she is.

Her traumas will tell her she's not enough, and she will look for everything that tells her she's not. She will find every hole, every misstep, every blind white lie and question it till it cannot make anymore sense. She looks for familiar mistakes, just so she can believe she isn't enough. She will take the blame and regret, just so the wrong is justifiable. She will make you innocent to her, because she doesn't want to see you as anything else.

Allowing her to love you will bring her a light she can't get anywhere else. She will stand a little straighter, and walk with more purpose. Her goals will seem a little more reachable and days less tiring. Her smile will shine a little brighter and she will seem undefeatable. The things that make her the elegant creation she is, will cast a light in even the darkest places. But... if you're not ready for her, if you are not ready to be the man a woman should be able to expect, if you question and doubt your ability to hold her when she falls for you, you will break her. She can mend her broken heart but her spirit will forever be scared…

Sincerely,

Myself...