Confessions of a Former Alcoholic Part 1

In the country I live in, absurd events occur almost daily, and people live in a state of lawlessness. People are almost always drunk and driving. I don't like this situation in my country, and I stay away from almost everyone.

That's why I only occasionally leave my house and see people I really want to see. I can say that I've experienced some strange coincidences, especially during this period of heavy drinking.

I grew up with an alcoholic father, and if I have children in the future, I don't even want to show them to my family. The reason for this is alcoholism. Because my father traumatized me from the age of seven.

My mother knows my father is an alcoholic and is afraid to leave. Because my mother loves power. (I think my mother is a narcissist.) I am 30 years old and I came here because there was an earthquake in the city where my family lives, but it wrecked my psyche for two years, and the rest of my family is frightened of me. I didn't even attend my nephew's birthday the other day.

At the same time, my mother is very concerned that I will no longer be able to communicate with her.

I recently started going to church and began to heal spiritually. This realization came while I was struggling with alcoholism, during which I understood that I wanted to have three daughters. I realized that I needed to be a role model for the children in the projects I would undertake.

When I went to church, they gave me two books about Christianity and when I started reading one of them, they almost taught us Turks false information about Christianity.

To say that I have completely been disconnected from the religion that I consider to be my faith would be an accurate statement.

Traumas can either make you stronger or destroy you

Alcohol, tobacco products or recreational drugs are often addictive. For example, if I earned $2,000 a month, I would spend $1,000 on alcohol and tobacco products just to avoid being reminded of my trauma

I was trained as an engineer, and I am doing business by establishing my own business.

These traumatic experiences, however, hinder you from even being able to do your professional duties.

If you allow yourself to be vulnerable to those who intentionally injure you, they will continue to do the same to you. (Having gone through my most recent experience, I even made the decision to alter my surname.)

Even my family was not there for me while I was going through my most recent problem; yet, they were aware of the potential for the money I might earn and wanted to stay in contact with me.It was impossible for them to forgo the pleasure of taking a holiday.

No matter how much my family tries to communicate with me digitally, there is now one-sided communication. (The last thing I can say is that I have no emotional connection to communication.)

If you grow up in a cruel family, you may even reach what is called the "dark triad" in psychology. (Stay away from such people.)

So I've just become an introvert, and I love cats.

Social Media Sucks

There is a generation that grew up with social media, and it has started to be filled with almost nonsensical things. I conducted a 4-month social media experiment. As a result of the experiment, the newly developed SEO tactics put people out of work and I shelved the SEO tactic.

I also came across some awful scientific publications and decided to avoid social media entirely. (An educated person should not spend time on social media, and social media should only be used for commercial purposes.)

I've been on social media for 12 years and I've only learned this:

• I really hate people
• Loving animals
• Privacy is very important thing