Bestfriend

Hey Girl, it's me your Best Friend I know we don't talk much but I need to say a few things so sit down shut up and just Listen. The night we met you were scared out of your mind do to your current Boyfriend at that time being in one of his moods yet you saw something in me that made you feel safe a complete stranger. Funny looking back it makes me smile; you had a black eye from where you told me you ran into something but I knew you were lying, I offered a safe haven at my stepmoms place, I blew off my probation meeting risking jail time to make sure you were safe.

I believe it started to snow a little that night as we wondered the streets while you looked for another option for a place to rest your head. But in the end you came with me after all your options blew you off. and we cuddled through the night, by the God's I miss that moment holding you while you slept. I felt something that night; to this day it's still hard to pin it down long enough to study it and make sure its safe. but when I look at you it escapes my grasp like a wet fish. After that night we went our separate ways and then like a year later we met again and your beauty still just as stunning; and there's that Fish again, ha! we spent the rest of the day together and most the night. We were on our way Back to Mama DJ's house when this Kid you knew showed up and began to annoy me an back then I did not have good control of my anger I almost struck this person and you caught my hand mid swing witch no one has done before; you saw a side of me I never wanted you to see. Little did you or I know that at that moment I fell in love with you. After that night you disappeared again and felt that I caused it do to letting my anger getting the best of me an so you didn't want me around anymore. I'm a Monster and here you are Neely nine years later still staying.

Come to find out that you love me, and that is awesome cause I love you too, we could never act on our love cause in the time you were gone you got married and I ended up in Prison. When I got out we reconnected and picked up where we left off like not a single minute has past. Keeping my promises I make to you seem to happen as if it was just another day, I can open up to you, when you're hurting I can feel it, when you're tired I am somehow tired, I've never been this connected to someone and it scares me; but I love it.

But now Cancer has a hold of you and its another challenge to what we have; and I keep asking God/ God's to Please not to take you from me and that I would give anything for you to stay alive, and beat this Cancer. I don't want to loose you, loosing my kids was painful enough, I can't loose you to. Your the only bitch that has seen my darkness and still chose to stick around. Without you I don't know what I would do; I guess I could help your mother raise your son, and be like a God-Father to him, but still you are the strongest and most interesting person I have ever met and enjoy our time together.

You're the fire I touch without care of burn,

your voice is the greatest song I will ever hear,

your presence is like the eye of a storm;

calm while the world crumbles around it.

With you I can sleep knowing that I have found my lost other half after,

only the God's know how long I searched.

Love you Best Friend,