AYO that’s funny, TIME is just a concept. 8/12

I’m on tinder right, just looking through old shit and I think that app got the dates fucked up my boy, let's do some backtracking, matched in September became official in October. Dated until January, fucked around and she was cheating the whole time? Interesting.

I’m thinking back to it, I was no better though. Had my hoes and then some. Had my last hoorah with YaYa and I ain’t gon lie did her so dirty bro. I fucked her ass up just to pop up with a shorty. I had a real problem with that, cracking a girl's spine into two and eating her like she was my last meal and friend-zoning or popping out with a new scheme.

Bro that was no Bueno, I mean especially since I can recall I was playing with a few of em. Gassing up, opening up about certain problems, and being laid up. Man, I was not a good candidate to be fucking around with but my girls ain’t know no better. Only played what I wanted for em and that was it.

I fucked off some good love out here for bitches that couldn’t compare; no cap. I can admit that shit now and looking back at it I don’t regret it. I’m in my 20s half these mf girls on the same time; I was just too shy to be with the TIMES, it all worked out though. I fell out with mfs I needed to fall out with and got right, I had to break up with that old life to make way for the new one. Learn who Groovy really is and I’m thankful for this time and opportunity that I have to do so. It has been nothing but blessings and new sights for me and I love it.

In this same time span of 8 months, I find myself often rerun these reels of mine in my head of time I spent with friends and lovers and I must say the first half of my life was an interesting one. I was a wild guy no doubt, binge drinking and smoking, multiple women in and out my house. The money splurge of 20’ (That will always be legendary, got a taste of the glam season) after that season I became money smart and started looking at life differently, like bro I was so broke once money dried up. Struggling to pay bills and keep up on tabs, money was going out and not enough coming in, the jobs were still on that lockdown shit for the most part; so finding one was just as hard as maintaining.

Breaking off from that though, I’m sitting here thinking about "always and forever" (A song I recorded to cope with a breakup lol) but I never loved that girl. I loved the feeling she would bring me and the shared trauma of having someone who understands but I was just as shitty as my SO was, the only thing is I rarely acted on my impulses as for her she would act. I knew that girl was cheating just like she felt when I slipped and was going to slip. That girl was a soulmate, my karmic soulmate and I had to see it for what it was.

I knew I had to get right just didn’t know I had to lose it all for it to happen. Damn, it’s pretty funny to me now sitting here just recollecting thoughts, I knew she wasn’t meant to stay. Was here to shake up my core values and beliefs and build me up for what is to come from the “all-star” life I want to live. I know how it is and the way it’s going to be. I know old “friends” can and will become enemies. I know family won’t even speak to me until they are in need but I really just want people to keep that same energy. The energy that they kept for these 8 months, and counting. I want them to keep it all.

I worked hard to build this mind and body of mine, this “quarantine” that I put myself in and locked myself away was to benefit myself as well as others. I learned how to become my own man and not be dependent on others or my “crowd” to save me and back me up, I had to take L’s on my own and pick myself up on my own. I had to learn valuable lessons that I will always cherish the memories that will play on my reel.

This is real, we are an ARTIST. Man of many natures, creative KING, that’s captain of the KOTI Fleet. I built this for others like me and other creatives who want to be free. I knew what this was and who this was for, I never gave up on my vision and now I’m going to make it different, going to break off from some other people respectfully; I’m still going to offer my services though. They've been somewhat kind to me and I guess “helpful” in a sense so I’ll be sure to return any favors with anything I can help with. That goes for just about everyone. I have no quarrels with none from the past, I always say that shit. Niggas have beef with a ghost cause this new me don’t even care anymore. I'm here to help and work with whoever wants to work.

(JUST CAUSE YOU HEAR SONGS ABOUT SHIT DON’T MEAN IT HAS TO DEAL WITH YOU, IF I AIN’T SAY YOUR NAME THEN BITCH TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT IS… SOME DAMN GAME!)

Yeah, really don’t be giving a fuck. I got my films I want to make and albums I gotta bake. This shit ain’t no game to me, it’s the only way I want to live my life and I’m going to make sure I can make a way for all creative children or any artist to follow their dreams with my brand.

THENETKA is my media company with a label underneath KOTI Records, that’s us. We hail from VA (Hampton to be exact) but we don’t discriminate, all get love from THENET. We triple as a blog and magazine too, that’s a work in progress though. I’m getting serious about this stuff and I’m happy to be where I’m at now. Cutting down problems as we speak and getting busy with these feet. We are still in the race, we're catching up and I know they hate how fast we adapt.

I got this shit, took a lot of trial and MOTHERFUCKING error with this shit but I got it. Thank my guides for their patience with me for real. Knew their asses were getting annoyed; ancestors too. They know what it is, no cap, this one of my longest entries; no bullshit. Had a lot to say off of just one memory alone and seeing that girl on Tinder.

Had a lot of beautiful queens that I took for granted because of my surroundings and mindset, I thank you mother time for blessing me with sight and age for I’m not that man I was before and blessing me with the mind to learn and not just hate and contemplate; new beginnings.

Thank God for this free will and gifts of knowledge and wisdom. Still a lot inside I need to uncover but only when the universe deems it fit. She rings when it’s time, happy my pen can write this time, no more rehearsing time.

-G

THENET 🧠