6 years later

when i went up and a

when i went up and asked you what's your name i didn't think how important you would be to me. I still remember what you did with your hands and that thing you were holding, even if you still deny holding it. Throughout the years we have had ups and downs. and yea at one time or another i had a picture in my head of us riding into the sunset, hell it included pit stops in rome and paris and bahamas and all the other dream places you wanna go to. yea i cried in anger for what that wanna be adult did and what little bitch did to you that weekend. yea i'm not gonna lie if you needed me to cover for you deciding to do an action then i would have been happy to cover for you even if it ended up with me in cuffs. I still remember when I met the family and the other friends. all those sun rises and all the sunsets. hell i probably should go to jail for all the stuff i stole from speedway to make sure you ate when you couldn't eat anything cuz the situation you were in, still surprised that basket never broke. he might have been your forever king, even if some nights that still brings a tear to my eyes, but that never meant that i couldn't make that promise to you and turn myself from just a wanna be that had no point to smile into that forever prince that kept his promise and made you realize that not all guys are the same. yea i know i can't say i'm perfect and i haven't made any stupid mistakes. tried to put a smile on your face only to have it backfire on myself. I gave you my everything and then some just to put a smile on your face, and it was a dream come true, but nowadays it just feels like I'm honestly nothing to you. yea i might be the one that lives just a few steps away but it doesn't help when we don't talk, you go out with all the others and i'm just standing here texting you how's your day and shows work, even if you tell me you aint a calling or texting person only to go on facetimes and everything with the ones that told me that i had no right to have you in my life in the first place. no more checking up on me, i get it. you have a lot on your plate and that's why i hold all my emotions in until i simply blow up like a fire burns in hell. but that doesn't mean my attitude would be better if you ask me how I am. But goodness, I'm trying to be strong, mainly because that's the only card that I can put on this poker table. and yea i know i don't get that good of a poker face. yea i know everyone still thinks i am in love with you ,but dammit i would be the stupidest person if i let go of all the feelings cuz dammit when i think of the good times most of them have you referenced in it. and maybe i should just move on, but how do you move on from the person that made you who you are deep down. you ask me to jump i'm gonna ask how how. still picticuting the wrestling moment like stone cold saves team wwf. still wishing that i could re-do that handshake with your first true king and dammit i wish that soldier remembered knocking me out. Let's go back to the brothers throwing balls at my head and that one devil trying to drown me. for 6 years.... dammit for 6 years i kept my word and dammit the devil gonna need to kill me to stop me from keeping that word of mine. So even if this book comes to an end with a not so happy ending then I'll write another book and I'll call it my comeback. and then when your book needs a hero, just as the wanna be's surround you, i'll appear. yea this tv series probably gonna end with me taking a bullet for you and i'll throw in some cliche stupid line like " your a good person, and friend". thank you for my being my rose even if i was only just your thorns.