Someone

if only you knew, i'm writing this in silence, in a kind of sorrow that no longer shows through tears. i'm writing this for someone who once swore never to leave but ended up being the first to let go. where is the promise you made? that you would never walk away? where are the words you whispered in between the warmth of our embraces and the quiet of the night? were they just temporary ? just sweet words you spoke to make me feel safe? only to abandon them when they no longer served you ?

i remember so clearly how you looked at me, like i was the only one you had been searching for all along. like the universe had led us to each other not by coincidence but by fate. i was foolish enough to believe it. i let myself drown in the hope you painted so vividly. you planted the seed of love but once it grew, you left it to wither and die. you promised a future, then burned every bridge that could lead us there.

why is it only me who kept the promise? why is it only me still standing in the ruins of what we once built ? i stayed, holding on to every vow we once made, while you vanished like none of it ever mattered. i walk through each day on broken memories, my heart bleeding silently. i kept loving, kept holding on, kept believing. but you? you chose to walk away..

you said love was about holding on, about protecting each other, about fighting for "us." but the love you brought wasn't that kind of love. yourswas only beautiful in the beginning, only warm when you needed a place to rest. when you were ready to move on, you did without looking back. you left me with all the questions. was i not enough? did i ask too much? or were you never really planning to stay?

what's the worth of a promise if only one person tries to keep it? what's the meaning of love if only one of us chooses to stay? you broke every word you once said, and that's the most painful part. if only you knew how hard i tried to understand. i looked at it from your side. i blamed myself, just to find reasons for your departure. but the more i tried, the more i saw the truth. you made a choice to walk away, and the deepest cut wasn't the betrayal. it was that i stayed silent, loyal, hopeful for someone who had already stopped seeing me.

you know, i never asked much from you. all i wanted was for you to stay. all i wanted was for you to show me that your promises weren't just words. but you chose to leave instead of fight, you chose the easy way out instead of working through the pain with me. you chose comfort elsewhere and i was left with the weight of everything we built.

i loved you that deeply. as deeply as i've ever loved myself. i once believed you were my home, the place i'd always return to, the shelter in every storm. but now i see that home was only a shadow. you were never meant to be my place of safety. you were just a stop along the way and i stayed too long in the wrong place.those promises now echo in my head again and again when the night gets quiet. but i'll let them fade, i'll learn to let go because not everything can be held onto you the one who once meant everything are now just a memory of someone who broke me but also taught me how to rebuild.

so thank you for the pain, for the lesson. i'm sorry i believed so deeply in a promise you never intended to keep. i will keep walking, even if my steps are slow. i will keep living, even with a heart you left behind. if one day you turn around, all you'll see is a shadow of someone you once hurt but who found the strength to rise from the pieces you left ..