Misty Waters

Frieder was standing at the table, taking the lunch as usual. He was rather quiet while his colleagues were rambling nonstop about their everyday problems, their children, their future plans and many more subjects that he found totally uninteresting. He was often picked on for his lack of communication, the others were always trying to tell him: "You're young! You should be talking a lot more, you should be more positive, you should stop spending so much time in your own head!". Frieder wasn't always like this, he was a quite happy and funny guy, never stopped talking and making jokes, sometimes people associated him with a clown, but he didn't care as long as he made others laugh.

So "What happened to him?" is the question that all of us will ask right now. Well, when he was 18 a storm violently shook his entire life, it was the first time in his life that he experienced a weird feeling, the feeling of living a lie to be more exact. An awful event that made him question his ways and the trust he put in people around him and vice-versa. It is only normal that he became more mean with others, he didn't care about them so much anymore, he had friends and supposedly good relations with his work and college colleagues. He was 21 years old now and had girlfriend that loved him very much, he fought a hellish battle to win her heart and he was proud, but also tired and scared of the possibility of new battles. He hurt people in the past, sometimes he felt guilty, other times he felt they deserved it. I can say that this was his biggest problem actually, he was not consistent with his feelings, now he feels something and 2 month later he turns 180 degrees.

In his mind he dreamed of big things: stars, exploring the space, revolutionary technology, word-wide peace, termination of corruption and bad human behaviors. He saw the problems of the society, but when he tried to speak about them people found him annoying. He was an inventor, but really couldn't achieve great things until then. Living wasn't easy when the only projects that were around were projects about commerce, basically enabling rich people ideas to make more money. Frieder was also hated by his friends and even some family members for not being happy with his situation. They often told him: "Why do you care? You should just be happy, you make more money than us, even if you're a little bit more stressed than us, you have more possibilities than us, you can afford that holiday that we cannot afford, or that flat or that car...". But this meant nothing to him, he wasn't a material person, people were also struggling to find gifts for him and he always told them that he wants nothing more than experiences. He wanted to have as many memories and experiences as possible with his loved ones, you could say that he was living a little bit in the past because he loved how his life was before the 18 years mark, but people didn't understand this as much.

Frieder also hated his own country, "A country full of idiots!" he often used to say... Elise told him that he shouldn't care about the country he is in, as long as they have their love, they could make it everywhere. It's not like he didn't believe this, but he wanted to be one step ahead as he saw an imminent war in the future years, corrupted leaders and also some extremist parties that were becoming more popular with every passing day. Frieder saw Elise not as stupid, but as innocent and pure... in fact too innocent and pure for the guilty and tainted world they lived in. He also knew he was worrying to much and that his worries were pushing people away from him. He was often lost in his thoughts, so lost that he didn't even hear people around him, in fact...

"FRIEDER! Come on man, say something about this! Aren't you planning to buy a flat after you finish college? You should try to make some plans at least, it will help you, believe us" said one of his colleagues named Mendrel. Mendrel was too positive in Frieder eyes, he found him annoying, even though he was physically active and had lots of hobbies and side-jobs, he didn't seem to live a happy life either, he was alone and had problems with women, he never could keep a long lasting relationship and that was killing him Mendrel even if he didn't want to show it.

"Me? Buying a flat?" asked Frieder. "Why? So I can sustain the 'Bankers Mafia'? The enslavement of society? And I don't even think I want to live in this country, so why bother buying a flat in the first place? I need money for something else... In fact, me and my girlfriend..." he forgot that he didn't told them much about his girlfriend because she was also one of their colleagues and she made it clear that she wanted to keep their relationship secret at least at the work-space. "It doesn't matter..." continued Frieder "Why do you care about my plans? I don't ask you about yours, you are the one that is throwing them in everyone's face!". The dispute continued but that isn't important.

He at least had the talent of muting people in these situations, so he started to thing about Elise again... She was older than him, but she wasn't really more mature, in some ways at least. She felt a little bit embarrassed because of Frieder's age, she thought that people were judging her for her decision of leaving her man for Frieder, some even thought that she was only in for his money, but Frieder always reassured her that it he knew it wasn't for that. She even had a flat where they lived, her parent bought it for her, and it wasn't an easy acquisition. Sometimes they felt they needed something more and made some plans, but as I already told you, Frieder couldn't not erase the thought of escaping his own country... One thing was for sure, their love was pure!

Well, I lied to you now. This is not the beginning nor the ending of our story. It is just a false start... false as some of Frieder's memories in the last years. He is now 26 years old (despite the fact that he forgets this sometimes) and most of his guesses came out to be true by now. His life is a hell, but more important: his memory is also a hell that started to torture him in the last 3 months. He is now unhealthy and he and Death flirted a lot during the last years of his life. One of the most hated people in his hometown, he lost many friends, he lost all love in his life and recently he started to realize he is also losing his own mind. Scared and with doubts, he must find out what exactly happened to him, who betrayed him, what he did wrong and what he did good. Will he be able to find the answers he is looking for or is he doomed for eternity? Stay tuned for the first chapter of Misty Waters and remember: do not dive to deep into them if you ever want to get out!