dear god… (1*)

Dear God,

It feels redundant to write to you, as I am informed that you already know exactly what I want and need. But… here I am, writing.

Perhaps I should let you know that I’m ready. That I am ready to meet the love of my life, and to live happily ever after from now. From right now, actually.

I understand that I’ve been the problem — that I’ve been delaying the process by wasting time with people I knew deep down were not my divine partner. And I’m sorry for that. But you know my heart was in the right place. It just hadn’t integrated the wisdom that you gave me over and over and over again.

But now I have, truly. I am prepared to wait for the one you’ve chosen for me — the man that I will spend all of my life loving.

Please let it be obvious to me and him when we meet.

I’m sure that you have a wonderful plan set out for us. A truly beautiful romantic story, and setting. I trust you.

I was initially going to write down all of the qualities I want in my husband — all about how he will truly see, understand, love, and adore me. About his loyalty, his beauty, his intelligence and kindness. His understanding of the universal laws. His love of philosophical conversations. His laughter and joy. His playfulness. His appropriateness. His respect for all living beings, for nature, for you.

But you already know exactly who I want and need as a true partner. You know the man who will inspire me every single day to love more, to love clearer, to love better. To be better — for him, and for us.

I’m certain my list wouldn’t even cover half of the amazing traits I will adore about this man you have chosen. So, I won’t go there. Instead, I will just thank you.

From the bottom of my heart and the depths of my soul — thank you. Thank you for never allowing me to settle for those men who never loved me, and never could have loved me.

Thank you for all the trials you’ve put me through to make me wiser, stronger, kinder. Thank you for helping me and supporting me over all these years I’ve worked so hard to improve myself.

I couldn’t have done it without you by my side: keeping me safe, keeping me protected, keeping me fed and sheltered. You have provided me with all the resources and all of the teachers I have needed every step of the way.

Thank you. Thank you for making me worthy of the man you have chosen for me.

Thank you for everything,

Kayleigh