Speaking out

When you want to be heard

But are afraid to speak as you scared

You are scared of what people will think or say about you

Afraid of saying the wrong thing

Nobody wants to listen to what you are saying

Afraid of upsetting people

You want to scream out loud listen to me

Or just see me I am not invisible

I want to tell people to think about someone other themselves

I am tiring of being there for people and no one being there for me

I sometimes wish I wasn't as caring and nice

We can't change who we are completely but we can change ourselves a little

When you want to speak out and you can't

You have a voice and want to be heard

You want to help people but they ignore you because they know better

People think about you what the hell do you know

You feel like your voice no longer exists

You want to tell people to go fuck themselves when they are mean to you but can't it not who you are

When that little voice in your head tells not to speak because people will just make fun of you

You just can't get the words out

You need help and are too afraid to ask for help as you can't speak out loud.

It is like the saying when life gives you lemons make lemonade it is one of the most ridiculous saying ever heard I say toss out the lemons and make whatever drink you feel like.

I have a voice but I choose not to use it as it has brought me nothing but trouble and grief.

So that is why I am afraid to speak out.