Cloud Nine

happy go lucky, is what I am. It did not always happen that way. but it does work that way now. i think it has to do with my disease, and medicine change. i also know that it has to do with the family that I love and found anew.

leading me through an open door. and creating a new portal that i find peace with. until i slumber into another day i will not close this one. and lose what all i have gained the previous day. although tommorrow will bring new insight on my condition, i love surviving. in a three bedroom house with my wife, son, two dogs, and two cats. this is paradise.

another one bites the dust, or so some queens must have said, one time or other? anyone was not there the other day that i had looked. my hair will be trimmed, and lush, and beautifully sharp dressed. turns out i am going to look sharper, sooner, than later, and remarry with a wife and child. i am ecstatic. all will be forgiven now and the bells will ring a loud toll.

i'm not running anymore. i am going to start to learn how to face it by myself or with my love. that would be awesome in itself. it is a crazy ride to combat my anxiety, but i am happy i am starting to adapt to it. it feels good.

and my family will be better for it. i do understand that this will be hard to do, but i will prevail. i am on cloud nine. let us start a new day over again. my wife has no problem with that. she had opened her arms and heart to it. and then the neighbors are not helping any. they are just pissing me off. but i am protected by locked doors and two trusting pets. just leave us alone and deal with your own problems.

no i am good love. i can deal with everything with your love and protection. that is just my perception of it. i am so glad i have my stress relievers. like writing, music, and most importantly my loving family. let god decide what he will do with his protection. amen.

it is a shame that i have to use 600 words or more to vent my anger and distrust in society. although i am tempted and traversed into writing more about it. i am just being honest about it. it trips me out.

i should start a journal about it. kind of like what i am doing right now. hallleluia. halloween sucks, i hope i do not have to call the authorities about it. im sick of the people that think they are better than everyone else. it would be nice if everyone was nice, but then the world would not be very interesting.

embed all of your feelings towards the light and let your spirit flow high. come with me on my journey and you will exchange them with my flow and start to live again. just tell the truth my loves and rejoice in what i will tell you partners, howdy. listen to my details of peace and tranquility. reward your carnage.

i pledge allegiance to my own flag of pleasure and outright pain towards the day that i will suck you dry of indecency. let us check in and take care of our loved ones. god bless us, one and all. i love my family and i am still on cloud nine when it happens to be yesterday evening. lets celebrate.