Top 20 Songs of 2020

In the humblest way possible I can honestly say that this year was a blessing for me. I know, I know... Crazy right? This year was most definitely a year from the fiery pits of hell itself. I am not denying that. But for me it was a blessing because I am still here. I'm here, healthy, writing on Vocal about my year and my Top 20 Songs of 2020 that helped me get through it all. I think the biggest blessing of my life is that my family is safe and healthy. I cannot express how much that means to me. There was so much sickness and death this year. Someone with a big heart like me could feel Death's energy seeping through the very air we breathe. The pain my heart holds for this year's tragedies, racism, and deaths is daunting. However, my heart continues to go out to everyone who has suffered in anyway...

Here is my Top 20 Songs of 2020:

Each song on my playlist played a significant role in my life. I acquired a newfound confidence in my existence. I had to learn the hard way that who I am is more than enough and with the heart that I have I deserve the best from those I would give my life for. It's so hard being the type of person that would never ever do the things that has been done to me. Things finally came to a breaking point to where I was tired of always saying, "If it was the other way around".

I was dating this guy... To make a long story short, he was a real man that any good woman would love to be with. But the problem was he was a man to everything and everyone else but me. Thus, he made me feel like was I was not good enough. I had to snap out of that notion because that was nowhere near the case. He just wasn't man enough to handle the love I was ready to give. The relationship I had with him was truly a roller coaster. Never consistent and if it was it was only for a moment. You could almost taste the toxicity. Now, I have a bitter after taste in my mouth. He reminds me of a nasty brand of water that only tastes good when it’s cold. (Yes, water has a taste and only true water drinkers know that.)

Anyways I’m sure you can probably guess which songs that helped me get through that toxic relationship and get over it. Aside from my love life, I reached an amazing hallmark in my life personality wise. I feel more beautiful and badass than ever before. I feel like the type of badass that could easily go to a bar wearing all black leather, get into a bar fight like in the movies, and kick some ass. I have learned new things about myself. Things that I wish I were back then. Now, all I can do is take who I am and make it even better. I'm not going to say that whole lame line "New Year, New Me" crap. I don't want to be a "new me". I want to be a better me. I came as who I am, and I love it.

My top number 1 Song "Come Around Me" by Justin Bieber is probably the best damn song ever. I never really liked Bieber all like that, but his Album "Changes" was FIRE. It expresses how I feel now and what I want in life as far as love. I met this new guy that I am falling pretty hard for and I'm hoping that he's the one. My top number 2 song "Nowhere to Go (Quarantine Love)" by Snow Tha Product is most definitely my quarantine anthem for this whole damn year. That song is so much fun and the music video is even more fun!

I been here since Monday, Tuesday

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday

Got nowhere to go

I'ma put it down on Monday, Tuesday

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday

Got nowhere to go, yeah

I'ma put it down on

-"Nowhere to Go (Quarantine Love)" by Snow Tha Product

The other songs were absolutely perfect for how I was feeling all year long. Whether I was feeling loved, not loved, sexy, badass, getting that money, or deep in thought. These songs were on point. Songs like "On Me" by anders, "BIG" by Day Sulan, and "Heartless" by The Weeknd were the songs that I would blast in my car while going 100+ mph on the turnpike in my Mini Cooper S racing some moron in a Subaru. Left him in the dust by the way. Those songs really amplified my badass side. "On Me" by anders is my anthem of the year. Lyrics like "Can't pick up, the money callin'" and "Got my money up, now I'm livin' like the white folk" is so on point for me. I am an African, Mexican, and Apache American woman who was one of the top sales agents at my job and well... Let's just say my bank account reflected my badassery accomplishments financially this year.

All the songs in my playlist were released this year of 2020 except for one. "Trust" by Brent Faiyaz was released in 2018 but I discovered him and that song this year. I wanted to include it because it is a very deep song that got me through a lot. Trust has never been difficult for me. I'm a very trustworthy person and I always try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt but that always seems to get me burned. It is so hard to find people that you know their word will always stand no matter what because you matter. I've had to cut a few people out of my life because the trust wasn't there, and the negative vibes was enough to suffocate you to near death. Trust isn't just about loyalty. It's about being able to believe in someone and being able to know that you can go to someone when you are down. Trust is also about having that reassurance. It's about knowing that you aren't alone. Things cannot be one sided in ANY type of relationship and communication is key.

You told me I could trust you, don't lie

I could really use it

Everybody need love, even niggas like me

You told me I could trust you

And I could really use it

So much I wanna talk about

But I ain't got no one to talk to (Shit, I don't)

I'm always tryna work it out

But somehow it always falls through

And I know that I get rough

But I just wanna feel love

Sometimes

Either you down or you ain't

You either riding or you can't

Real shit

-"Trust" by Brent Faiyaz

I hope you enjoy my playlist! As you can see, most of the artists aren't mainstream. I love supporting up and coming new artists or artists in their prime. All these artists always hit home because they are so relatable. From the bottom of my heart I wish you all the best in 2021. Don't stop getting better. And take it from me... The quicker you remove all the negative vibes the better and clearer things become. Be you but better. ..