Music A Way To My Soul

As long as I can remember music has always inspired me. I'm not a person that can express my feelings easily. The only way that I can express my feelings or my mood is through music. I love anything to do with art and when I'm listening to my favorite song I feel as if I can do anything. I've never been popular and I never had a lot of friends in my whole thirty four years. But, in certain situations it feels as if the music is speaking to my soul and is my one true friend. I feel alive when I listen and that is something that is really hard for me to say. I never really feel live or energetic. Yet that one special song comes on and I can take on the world. There is one song in-particular that has saved my life more then once. It is diamond eyes from Shinedown. Now let me explain how.

I used to be a semi-truck driver over the road. There where so many times in the winter that the roads would be very slippery and packed with snow. Now during the day this is still a big deal but not half as bad at night. You guessed it I drove nights. Every time I would drive through the snow and I couldn't pull over and there was no place to park I would play that song. I would even put it on repeat just so I felt safe. I was able to drive like a pro even in my first year as long as that song was on. And I made it through every time.

I believe in my heart that the music saved my life for five winters. And I am so thankful that I found my comfort in that song. I really believe that if it wasn't for music I would have died long ago. It's like having your best friend by your side helping you through everything you're going through. Explaining that and people and having them understand that is one of the hardest things to do . I no longer attempt explaining it any more due to the looks I get. I never really understood why people find it odd. I mean everyone has something. Some have religion, some have a book, some even have a person they feel that way with.

Artist put their hearts and souls into their music. Why shouldn't we put our heart and souls into listening to it. I feel passion, safety, even contentment from a lot of songs. If I ever had the chance to meet Shinedown I would thank them for making diamond eyes. I would probably even cry cause well I mean it freaking Shinedown. They are like my guarding angle in my eyes. But, there are so many other songs that have helped me through out my life. And it really doesn't matter what kind of music it is, I listen to everything.

Now if I feel unsafe due to my surroundings or myself I will listen to that song over and over again until I fell safe again. A lot of people don't understand why I love my music as much as I do or even how it can completely change every aspect of a moment for me. But, then again I really don't think I should have to explain it. It's like a relationship you cant understand the feelings you have but you know that you feel that way. And no matter what anyone dose or says you wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I know I wouldn't.

In the words of my favorite song "Every night I watch angles fall from the sky. Every time that the sun still sets I prey they don't take mine."