Know Thyself

I’m Sorry, Forgive Me, Thank You, I Love You... The first line spoken word of the song that I wrote in 2016 in my darkest moments. The time I was confronted by my own private Hell! Just when you don’t think you can get any lower, and then you are staring into the abyss.

I had gone through a bad break up with my partner of 7 years in which we shared two children and she just up and fled to Queensland with them. She cheated on me while I was fighting the government in a successful bid to free us from the tyranny of law and claim our sovereignty. Her excuse being she was afraid for her children... when in actual fact she was looking for an excuse to smell greener grass.

Fleeing to the other side of the country to live with her alcoholic mother was her way of escaping reality, she was an alcohol and drug abuser, we both were, even though we were on our way to cleaning up our act and begin a sober lifestyle.

9 months of torture began for me a road to redemption as I was introduced to my friend Psychosis. Waking up at all hours of the night with vivid dreams of me in black and white standing on the shore of a place back in time as an aboriginal watching ships role in and guns blazing and bullets skimming. I would be almost drowning in my own sweat.

The solace came in a melody, a tune of forgiveness, of self understanding. This was no ordinary lullaby, it was an anthem for a generation to reach deep within themselves and pull out the Truth!

Know Thyself, upside down and inside out and all the way around. Know Thyself, utterly and completely until one day when you can love you, unconditionally. That was the epic chorus that would seal the status of this classic track.

The story takes shape with the lyrics, ‘In the deepest recess of your soul, there you are’, which represented where I was at during the process of my coming back to myself. This song was more or less my healing song and it still is, not just for me but also others have expressed their gratitude for this songs deep spiritual cleansing qualities.

‘Screaming out as if you lost control, a fallen star’, I’d fallen from grace and was beating myself up thinking it was all my fault my world was falling down around me, my relationship dissolved and my children were gone and there was nothing I could do... I felt powerless for the first time in my life!

Around this time my friend who was a psychologist had offered to help me through this darkness and find the light again... to this day I hold him as my saving grace... he claimed the second part of the song, ‘In the distance there’s a dim lit house... Ahhh you’ve found your way, open the door as quiet as a mouse in the table there’s a message, what does it say’? Enter Chorus.

I have had past issues with my ego and made some poor choices and decisions, I think we’ve all been there... Some of us know how to manoeuvre through the storms of life, however I had very few storms and this one was sinking my ship. Thanks to the man I will always consider my brother who helped me captain the ship and steer through with minor damage. He believes much of the credit to my healing came from the completion and the live expression of this song. I believe this to be true also as every time I play this song live it feels like another layer of my karma is removed, coz in healing myself I also heal others.

There is only one other song that comes remotely close to this song and it is the song which ELVIS PRESLEY is known throughout the world for making famous, ‘I CANT HELP FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU’. That song which I have performed on many occasions has always made me break out in goose bumps and almost brings me to tears.

As a performer I am an open channel to feel every song so I can effectively tell a story, but none more than those two songs affect me as those two that I have mentioned here.

As a spiritual being if I never write another song I will go to my eternal rest knowing that I brought an offering to this physical plain as a chance to gift humanity with healing.

Music is a powerful force and not many who are gifted with this power use it to its full potential.

Brightest Blessings

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