Chin Up, You're Okay

I enjoy composing playlists on Spotify much more than I can give myself credit for. I like to keep them short for Vocal because of my own anxieties with writing I guess. (The important part here is that I happen to cram pieces of music into random playlists and then forget about the songs for years.)

I tend to have a lot more bad days. More than I allow myself to give credit for. I like to think that music speaks a thousand words. The songs in this playlist, keep me going, give me new energy, and heal me entirely. I thought about what I wanted to put into this playlist and the feeling that I wanted to express.

Bonus points, I'm giving my friend that lives over a thousand miles away credit entirely for inspiring this post.

That all being said, here is my latest version of my bad day playlist! :)

Unfold by Porter Robinson

And I watched the water unfold . It's a feeling I want you to know . 'Cause I'm not the same as I was.

This song reeled me in on a very bad day in my life. Some days are hard to exist, especially knowing how damaged you can be from time to time. Like I said in the beginning, I have more bad days than I can give myself credit for. This song completely inspired this playlist for Vocal. Because I am clear as day, not the same person that I was. (I told myself that I have died fifteen different times this past year, but I tried to struggle through every hard moment that I have endured.)

I Will Overcome by Weshly Arms

In my time of darkness , I'll step into the light . Even when I'm knocked down to my knees , I'll stand up and fight . 'Cause I, I, I will overcome.

I love how beautiful this artist sings their pain. Some days just seem to take all the fight you have from you. But allowing yourself to keep looking forward and moving through the bad moments that seem to surround you seems to help me. Like I mentioned above, my bad days happen to surround me a lot more than I can bear some days.

Happy by P!nk

Keep telling myself that I'll get better . Every time I try, I always stop me . Maybe I'm just scared to be happy.

This song gets to me every time I listen to it. I find almost every word to be relatable for how I feel most of the time, especially since most of my romantic relationships end in heartbreak. I enjoy that she sings about therapy in this song. I know that I do not want to be scared to be happy for the rest of my life, and she explains her own longing to "feel okay" in this song. I cherish P!nk's voice and the words that she sings in this song.

Best of Me by NEFFEX

They looking right at me , to see if I succeed , to see if I believe . They looking up to me . They want the best of me now.

This song makes me think of my children. When I am having those bad parenting days, I let myself listen to this happy, upbeat song. Because they really only want the best of me. They don't need a mother that struggles with the pieces of her broken heart.

i believe by Christina Perri

I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday . And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way . I wish that you could see your scars turn into beauty . I believe that today it's okay to be not okay.

This song is one that I will forever be cherishing. After seeing this beautiful human being perform live many many years ago, I fell in love with her song-writing style. She was opening for Demi Lovato back then, and I was utterly enamored with her beautiful voice. I idolized both women for so many years after that concert. This lovely mantra suits this bad day playlist. It has helped to inspire me on my uttermost worst days. This is not the end of me, this is only the beginning.

Still Have Me by Demi Lovato

Everything around me shattered . All the highs are now just lows . But it doesn't even matter , cause I'd rather be alone.

I remember the first day this song came out. Demi Lovato is very famous for being outspoken about her struggles with mental health and addiction. Sometimes pieces of writing can haunt you because of how powerfully painful they can be. I remember showing a good friend of mine this song back when it first came out. I instantly bawled my eyes out at the amount of pain that was shared in this song.

The biggest blessing I ever had was watching this wonderful woman perform years ago even while she was in the midst of struggling herself. I'm very proud to have grown up loving Demi Lovato's music from back within my childhood. I admire the way she developed into her own writing and music style. Fix a Heart is a childhood favourite bad day song of mine.

Tough by Quinn XCII

And I'm sure you'd win in an altercation but you're still insecure to me . Oh, so mess me up . I know you're not so tough.

My whole heart resides in this one song. I found it over a year ago and it really breaks my heart and rebuilds it at once. It is another one of those songs where every line does hold a special meaning for me. Bonus: It's light and upbeat so it doesn't bring my mood completely down when I listen to it.

Without Me by Halsey

Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there , feeling so high but too far away to hold me . You know I'm the one who put you up there . Name in the sky , does it ever get lonely? Thinking you could live without me.

I recently posted a piece of writing where I analyze this song. I tend to reserve music like this for my bad days. This song just tears me up inside when I am really feeling sorry for myself. If you'd like to read more about how I feel about this song, take a look at this Vocal post that I wrote.

Rehab by Machine Gun Kelly

What do you see, when you look at me? Don't cover my scars, let them bleed . Tell me, is this how it's supposed to be? Well then, I'm so, I'm so happy.

This sappy song by Machine Gun Kelly pulls me into pieces sometimes. It makes me think of a time period that I was still with my children's father. I was not fixated on drugs back then. He was, to the point that it destroyed our relationship. Sometimes I would do anything to go back to then and fix everything. I think that's why I allow this song to control the way I feel about that man. Because he is a lot more important to me than I give him credit for.

Good Place by Demi Lovato

And with a whole lot of work , a whole lot of hurt, whole lot of grace . Now I'm in a good place. Through bad situations, fixed the foundation . And now I'm doin' alright.

She really does speak to my heart on a deeper level. When I was creating this playlist, I happened to stumble across this Demi song that I had never heard before. It spoke to me deeply because of the problems that I had shared with my family this past year. I enjoy the way that Demi Lovato shares her pain and healing through her music. Even if she breaks down from time to time, she still manages to stand strong through the problems that she had endured. It's never easy watching someone you love struggle with addiction.

Sometimes by Taz

I let everything get ruined cause I'm too scared to be happy , cause every time i smile thats when life choose to come at me. My back is up against the wall I feel it crackin g. I'm trapped in my mind, its like this demons overlapping . They laughing, at all the pain I'm feelin from this rapping . It's sad when your passion turn to another past tense.

This is one of those bad day songs that I will forever cherish. It is so extremely unique. I fell in love with the artist Taz after listening to this song that I found on Spotify. Every single line sinks into me. I feel differently about this song after showing it to one of my good friends from back in the day. The bars do speak for themselves in my honest opinion. When it comes to making me feel better, this song really does the trick.

I actually wrote about this song and a few other ones that have landed on this playlist almost six months ago. I definitely would say my playlist compositions have gotten much better since I first published this "Open When" playlist.

Show Me What I'm Looking For by Carolina Liar

Don't let go . I've wanted this far too long . Mistakes become regrets . I've learned to love abuse . Please show me what I'm looking for

This song makes me cry from time to time. An important tidbit of information. I love how this song builds up and becomes extremely powerful. I think a lot of people can relate to the feeling of being "lost" and this song makes sure that you don't feel alone. Or at least that's how I allow myself to view this song.

Happier Than Ever by Billie Eilish

I knew when I asked you to (When I asked you to) . Be cool about what I was tellin' you . You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do, and I'd end up more afraid . Don't say it isn't fair . You clearly werеn't aware that you made me misеrable.

This song makes me think of my ex. When you're struggling with a bad relationship, and nobody's sides are seen, this song is what you get. I feel very comfortable throwing this song on the playlist. I chose very selfish lines as I do love it when the song begins to pick up and build. Billie Eilish has such a lovely voice and writing style.

save me from the monsters in my head by Welshy Arms

I'm not strong enough to catch my breath . Come and save me from the monster in my head , 'cause I need you here . You keep me safe . You keep me safe and sound.

I included this song within my Halloween "Party" Playlist just a few weeks ago! I love how beautiful this ballad is. It keeps me safe on those bad days that I mentioned having earlier. Especially when you struggle with panic and anxiety. I feel so selfish including this song in one of my playlist posts again, but it does happen to scream at me on the worst days of my life.

Gets Better by Catie Turner

I know these days should be treasured , but I don't want to remember at all.

I discovered this beautiful song in one of Shane Dawson'svideos. It was in one of their montages hidden within the Jeffree Star videos: before Shane was canceled for what seems like the millionth time in his life. (I clearly am more excited about him publishing videos again than I can give myself credit for.) I was pregnant with my daughter at the time that series was published and this song meant so much more to me back then. I think that's why that line sticks out for me so prominently. I was struggling so hard with just general life back then, that I grasped onto anything to keep me going. His videos were one of those things. I know why this song soothes the dark spaces in my heart and I will forever treasure Shane Dawson's creativity.

This playlist sums up my bad days lately. I hope that whoever crosses this post just doesn't feel alone, because I know how alone I have been. I do think that things get better, or at least that is what I tell myself.

one day at a time.

Chloe Rose Violet

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