Dairies of love

The day I decided to write about my own tale, I'm not sure if I should call it a one-sided love story or something else. This began over two years ago. We had played together since we were kids, but as time passed and my family's needs changed, we returned to the same spot five years later when I was twenty-one. I was a boy who believed that everything was merely necessary and that there was no such thing as love or attraction, therefore I never imagined that this would occur. During that period, I was constantly with married women to provide them with mental and physical support while they relaxed and hookup. These days, getting

Being intimate with someone of the opposing gender is acceptable, but I'm in my 90s, and I believe it's bad to get physical with a female before marriage. I also thought it was appropriate to have affairs with married women if they were ready, but I never asked any married ladies to date me. I was content with that as well. And then one day we began chatting, sharing memes, flirting, hanging out with friends, and talking like regular friends. Prior to that, she was simply

neighbors that reside in the same building as me. Talking to her all the time. I don't know what happened to me, but I started to ignore everything. I stopped meeting those women and hooking up with them. All I wanted was to talk to her, spend time with her, and think about her constantly—even at night, when someone else calls her name rather than their own. the significant shift I sensed. I attempted to ignore my feelings for her because I assumed it was just an infatuation.

She also urged me not to think about it because it's only an attraction. Actually, flirting was the beginning of it all. I constantly flirted with people here while conversing because, as I mentioned earlier, I never considered dating girls. After noticing all of this flirting, she once asked me in the morning whether I liked me or what since I am the one you talk about and you flirt with me so much. And just for kicks, I said, "Yeah, you are that girl, I think I will clear this up." However, she kept asking me more questions, and I was only responding for kicks when I stated that I didn't care about attraction or love.


I made the decision to tell her that nothing is like that when it gets to be too much, and that same day I made the decision to clear her and tell her the truth. However, I am afraid of what she will say and think about me, so I don't dare to tell her the truth and keep talking to her because, believe me, I began to feel something special about her. I'm not sure why I was thinking about her, but since I've never experienced any of this, my sentiments for her were genuine. After I dropped her off at the office after driving her there, I was thinking about her. I'm not sure why.


Why do I leave her there? Why is she so far away from me? I was experiencing some ridiculous stuff. I was actually having nightmares about her, not simply the kind of ones where you see her as if she were yours. It started as a simple misunderstanding for her, but it was more funny for me because she didn't know the truth. I still feel awkward talking to her face-to-face because I lied, and secondly, what I start feeling about her is real. I keep having dreams about her that I'm uncomfortable with. I had never watched love stories until she recommended the web video Crash Landing on You: A Korean Love Story. I only enjoyed watching mysteries, crime, and horror films.


movies and web series, but she said, "How can I ignore it?" I was in her zone, where nobody cared anymore, and after watching it, I fell in love and began watching those kinds of Korean web series. She enjoys ED Sheeran's song "Perfect." I love the song that I will sing to her if a special occasion arises, along with a Hindi song by Lucky Ali called "O Sanam." I listen to this song constantly.

I loved to listen to her, and I was always available for her. This much was happening, even though my entire passcode was a combination of her name and the letters from her birthdate. I never saved passwords on my phone; I only locked it to add her name. Additionally, I told her about some nightmares I had two days ago (June 1, 2023: When I got to the temple with my girl and a few of our friends, it was pouring rain, and we were all inside. On the way there, I noticed that she wanted to say something to me, but she was holding herself back.

I was standing outside staring at you as you were praying. Once she finished praying, she came out with all of her friends and said goodbye to them. We were standing outside when one of her friends arrived and began talking to her, and I was enjoying the rain when her friend abruptly ran over and gave me a hug. When I woke up, she was hugging my pillow. Numerous others

dreams. All of this makes me feel strongly about her, and every time I speak with her, I picture the night before. I'm not sure what the reasoning is for this. I gave her the nickname "sweet tooth" since she eats a lot of chocolate, especially Kitkat. I never expected her to feel the same way or notice me; instead, I just wrote down all I saw on my own and haven't been able to figure out what it is yet. In addition to all of this, she has a boyfriend with whom she shares a close link.


She is content, so that's all I want. I used to be really flirtatious with her, but she told me she didn't want to do that. As a result, I stopped flirting and our conversations ended because all I was doing was flirting and posting amusing memes about adorable baby reels. She loves baby movies. Even though I adore her eyes, I don't gaze into them when I'm speaking.

Then I started think it wasn’t attraction’s. I discuss my objectives and future plans here. I was enrolled in a Merchant Navy course, went for training, and was duped there. When I returned, everything had changed. I was so disappointed in myself that I decided to take the next step, which I did after speaking with her here. I will always be grateful to her because I was relaxing and had time to complete everything. Goals were prepared, but what if you're just speculating? She is involved in everything, from planning to action, and I find it valuable. I answered, "All of this is ruined, and I will face her."

I did a lot of things, but now I had nothing left. It was really difficult for me to go somewhere and die in front of her, but my second mother, Masi, reassured me that nothing had happened and that it was only a minor issue. Try your hardest and accomplish your goal. I wish to travel to Delhi for my uncle's wedding after that. I wanted to have the confidence to talk to her, but I can't; instead, I just share reels. I text her on my way back to Mumbai.

She responded, saying, "Now you got time while coming back." I told her I was preoccupied with my uncle's wedding, but in reality, all I was thinking about was what to do next and how to approach her. She was preoccupied with her own relationship and job after getting here. With time, everything slowed down, such as our friends' habit of taking a walk after supper or going on a ride. She rarely communicates with me now, and even though I send her a lot of memes, she rarely responds. It's not her fault, though, because she is with her while we are in front of each other.

boyfriend and I don't see why we should be apart, but when all of my friends are there, I do join them. It's not because of her boyfriend; his is a good friend of mine. I don't like being around couples, but I also don't feel good when they are together. She keeps asking me why I leave like I don't know her, but I tell her that it's just a misunderstanding. Why will I disregard your uniqueness?

to me, and she always will, as this was the first time I had ever experienced such a feeling. I enjoy the atmosphere she creates with me, and I adore hearing her voice. It was okay at first to not talk to her every day, but now that she's gone to a different city for work, I feel as though I won't even be able to see her face. In addition to being a fearful and overthinking girl, she dislikes horror films. However, she has a companion who will protect and assist her in handling these situations. Today, April 02, 2023: When I saw her, she responded to

Instagram memes I text her, saying, "Hello, busy lady." When I asked her when she would return, she said, "Yes, very busy." When she answered, "13 February," I said, "How did your parents react while you were away? She claimed that her mother became upset and that after I returned home, she showed me even more love. She then informed her PG that everything was OK during the day and that office hours were easy, but at night, things were more complicated.

difficulty sleeping, I told you that it will return to normal once you understand that the ghost in your room is actually you and your roommates. Then we bid each other good night and called it a day. Today, February 13, 2023 She has left, and I have no idea when I will be able to see her again. I wished her a happy travel last night, and all she said was "thank you." I hope she stays safe and looks after herself. My surprise one-sided love story is not over.

Manoj Kumar